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Seven years down, who knows how many to go?
I was suffering from some serious delusions of grandeur back in 2008, as I imagined myself being a well-versed veteran of erotic fan art by now. In my hubris, I failed to recognize that it had taken me ten years to be on the feeble level I was back then, and over twenty if we go by my drawing hobby in general and not just cartoon smut. In these old planning files, I see myself dreaming of doing live-action quality sketches by 2012, and even 3D-looking 2D art a year before that. Of course, it's laughable and very, very egotistical when you think about it now.
Nonetheless, I do admire the drive I had back then. I seemed to be telling myself that I feared absolutely nothing, and while that was true to a certain extent, many of my followers quickly noticed that I had my comfort zone in Danny Phantom erotica, and I rarely stepped away from it. The drive, however, had nothing to do with my lack of certainty when it came to drawing outside the Hartman style and that one, I will argue, was very much a real thing. When the bubble of my hubris burst (nemesis), my studies caught up with me and I acquired more friends within the community, it humbled me and to some point even slowed down that drive. There were several moments where I wanted to wind down and take a break, and one came rather quickly during 2009 and 2010 after I burned out from attempting to do that huge DP orgy picture, but in the end the drive always returned. It was not as youthful and idealistic (or as foolish) as it was in the early days, but it kept me purchasing more pencils and paper, and at one point, I even got myself a Wacom tablet. It wasn't the Cintiq I used to blab on and on about over at Wacky World, but it's now an irreplaceable part of my fan art creation process and has paid back its hefty price of 459€ a good while ago.
In a few years I will be hitting thirty years of age, and my youth, as they say, will soon be over. Would I say I regret spending it on the internet, drawing nasty pictures of cartoon characters? No. I only regret that I did not have the possibility, for one reason or another, experience life in all its richness, but specifically by the way of travelling around the world – still, I did manage to visit The United States a couple of times, so I cannot even say I was completely robbed of that either. I am well aware that life isn't over when you enter the next big ten so I do hope to make it out into my 40s as a man who went, saw and didn't necessarily conquer but returned safely home with a few more life experiences richer. Home, where awaiting him is a nice stack of 120g/m³ paper, several different pencils and an Intuos 5L.
(Of course, if you guys think that I'm sounding like some old rocker waxing on about some wisdom he writes on a blog he barely knows to operate, then you might be right. It really is douche chill -inducing and I should just shut up and get back to drawing naked ladies)
I know I should thank you all at this point but I don't know, it'd probably be a bit insincere since there's a chance this gets read by a bunch of people who don't really give a shit, including tracers, and thanking them would be a bit silly. So, instead, I'll end it with the universal motto of a Generation X slacker:
Whatever.
Have some Desiree tits.
I was suffering from some serious delusions of grandeur back in 2008, as I imagined myself being a well-versed veteran of erotic fan art by now. In my hubris, I failed to recognize that it had taken me ten years to be on the feeble level I was back then, and over twenty if we go by my drawing hobby in general and not just cartoon smut. In these old planning files, I see myself dreaming of doing live-action quality sketches by 2012, and even 3D-looking 2D art a year before that. Of course, it's laughable and very, very egotistical when you think about it now.
Nonetheless, I do admire the drive I had back then. I seemed to be telling myself that I feared absolutely nothing, and while that was true to a certain extent, many of my followers quickly noticed that I had my comfort zone in Danny Phantom erotica, and I rarely stepped away from it. The drive, however, had nothing to do with my lack of certainty when it came to drawing outside the Hartman style and that one, I will argue, was very much a real thing. When the bubble of my hubris burst (nemesis), my studies caught up with me and I acquired more friends within the community, it humbled me and to some point even slowed down that drive. There were several moments where I wanted to wind down and take a break, and one came rather quickly during 2009 and 2010 after I burned out from attempting to do that huge DP orgy picture, but in the end the drive always returned. It was not as youthful and idealistic (or as foolish) as it was in the early days, but it kept me purchasing more pencils and paper, and at one point, I even got myself a Wacom tablet. It wasn't the Cintiq I used to blab on and on about over at Wacky World, but it's now an irreplaceable part of my fan art creation process and has paid back its hefty price of 459€ a good while ago.
In a few years I will be hitting thirty years of age, and my youth, as they say, will soon be over. Would I say I regret spending it on the internet, drawing nasty pictures of cartoon characters? No. I only regret that I did not have the possibility, for one reason or another, experience life in all its richness, but specifically by the way of travelling around the world – still, I did manage to visit The United States a couple of times, so I cannot even say I was completely robbed of that either. I am well aware that life isn't over when you enter the next big ten so I do hope to make it out into my 40s as a man who went, saw and didn't necessarily conquer but returned safely home with a few more life experiences richer. Home, where awaiting him is a nice stack of 120g/m³ paper, several different pencils and an Intuos 5L.
(Of course, if you guys think that I'm sounding like some old rocker waxing on about some wisdom he writes on a blog he barely knows to operate, then you might be right. It really is douche chill -inducing and I should just shut up and get back to drawing naked ladies)
I know I should thank you all at this point but I don't know, it'd probably be a bit insincere since there's a chance this gets read by a bunch of people who don't really give a shit, including tracers, and thanking them would be a bit silly. So, instead, I'll end it with the universal motto of a Generation X slacker:
Whatever.
Have some Desiree tits.
Slight Update
Yes, I'm alive and no, I'm not "back." Things are still the same, I'm simply trying to get the remaining commissions done at a snail's pace, don't expect a huge comeback or anything. However, I did promise to let my dA followers know when I will release new art again. Well, I just did, last night, and it's not just one but two new pics! You can find them on my blog or, preferably, on R u l e 3 4 P a h e a l (higher resolution versions are available there) when you search with the tag DLT. Now, if you'll excuse me, I'll return to my chambers now. Oh, and one more thing: the new dA layout is still absolutely terrible. It took me more than five minutes to figure out where my journal posts all went and where to find the button to write a new entry. Also, when I attempted to edit the old posts to get the journal header pic I drew back in '13, it either sent me to my mostly empty Sta.sh or just back to my main page. I was literally unable to edit my old posts! Fuck this place. Also, if
Twelve
I think I've reached a point where there isn't much to say during the anniversary of my artistic debut online, not to mention there isn't really much for me to celebrate at the moment since my life has forced me to go on an extended hiatus for the foreseeable future. I suppose the most I can say is that I am eternally grateful and thankful for all the years I was able to as active as I was, even though I never really managed to get to the level where I'd be able to pump out art on a regular, stable basis.
Having said that, I should mention that in happier news, I've made progress with the first of the four remaining commission pieces and hop
Miscellaneous thoughts #24
* Starting today, I will be on a hiatus/taking an extended break from posting art. While I will still be working on the remaining commissions I have (duh), you will most likely not see that much new art from me for some time. As for how long might this break/hiatus be? At worst, it could be five years. At best, only a year. In reality, it'll probably be something between those two extremes. As for the reason why I'm doing this, I would like to keep that to myself, although I will say that it is not out of my own volition, but rather due to outside circumstances in my life. Also, for those who might be worried, this will be the third time I'm
R.I.P. Etika (1990-2019)
https://twitter.com/NYPDnews/status/1143558996172967937
I may have only been a casual viewer/fan of Desmond 'Etika' Amofah and his streams, but this news still hit me pretty hard. Having discovered him after looking up various Undertale (2015) Let's Plays, I immediatelly clicked with Etika's sense of humour, which was mish-mash of politically incorrect statements, raunchy jokes, self-deprecation, observational humour and spontaneously breaking into characters, such as "Young Ramsay." More importantly, Etika differed from plenty of other YouTubers and streamers in a sense that he had a certain sincerity to his performance. While I don't doubt
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Man, life begins at 30!
Anyway, keep on truckin'
Anyway, keep on truckin'